Yeah, I know this it a bit behind. It's been an interesting autumn. But, more about that another time.
Most of us – certainly, all of us who are adults – have at one time or another been through the process of hearing a job description. It might come as part of a job interview. It might come as part of a peer review process, or perhaps an annual review. But one way or another, most of us have listened to a detailed job description.
Which is, really, what happened to Moses.
Now, Moses had been coping with a serious identity problem. Was he a Hebrew slave? Was he an Egyptian prince? All of this came to head when he killed that Egyptian overseer – something that would make sense for a Hebrew slave, but which only an Egyptian prince could get away with. That was the reaction the next day of the other Hebrews: “Who are you? You’re nothing but a murderer!” Then he fled to Midian. There he married a preacher’s daughter, and became a shepherd. Hebrew slave, Egyptian prince, murderer, shepherd – that has to be an identity crisis to end all identity crises!
So, there he was, out in the wilderness with the flock, when he sees the bush; and it’s burning – except it’s not. It’s flaming – yet nothing goes to coal or ash. “This,” he says, “I’ve got to see.” He turns aside, and when he gets close enough, God calls to him: “Moses, take off your shoes. You’re standing on holy ground.”
And then God gives Moses a job: “I’ve seen how my people suffer at the hands of the Egyptians. I’m going to bring them out; and I’m going to send you to do it.”
Now, this is pretty basic as a job description – but Moses wants none of it! He starts to crawfish, coming up with every reason he can think of that he’s not the right person. He doesn’t speak well, and he doesn’t make much of an impression. First and foremost, he says, “Who am I to go? More important, when they ask, who can I say sent me?”
And God answers: “I am who I am;” or, “I will be who I will be;’ or, perhaps, “Is-ness. And that will be my name forever.”
But for all of that, Moses wants nothing to do with it; and won’t, until God eliminates all his objections. But, this got me to thinking: Moses doesn’t sound all that much like someone we’d accept into the ordination process. After all, when bishops and Commissions on Ministry and seminaries think about who they might consider for ordination, they tend to think about someone who is confident and competent, and certainly not someone with a serious identity crisis. They look for someone who can function independently. When I was in the process, they were looking for “a self-starter.” Fifteen years later, the phrase was “a change agent.” Recently, I’ve heard that the goal is someone who is “entrepreneurial.” And there’s a point to all of this. Most clergy are in one-person positions, or perhaps part of a small staff. The capacity to act independently has its value.
But, Moses wasn’t very “entrepreneurial.” He wanted nothing to do with this job, at least not at first. And yet look what God did with him!
We get caught up in these images of what things are supposed to look like, and especially what leaders are supposed to look like. That was Peter’s problem. He had just proclaimed that Jesus was the Messiah and the Son of God; and Jesus had proclaimed that this confession would be the foundation for the new body. And then he went on to give the job description, to say what being Messiah would mean. It would mean journeying to Jerusalem, where it would mean arrest and torture and crucifixion and death, and then resurrection. But as we know that didn’t fit Peter’s image of the Messiah. Wasn’t the Messiah supposed to raise up Israel again, and, not incidentally, to through out those oppressive Romans and those awful Greek-speaking pagans? So, he took Jesus, pulled him out of earshot, and said, “Wait a minute! Don’t tell them that! God forbid that should happen!”
But Jesus answered so that everyone could hear: “Get behind me, Satan. You are deceived and deceiving. You’re seeing things the way everyone has always seen them; but God sees them differently. And if you can’t see things right you’re a hindrance to me and not a help.”
He went on, “If you want to follow, you need to take up your own cross and follow. If you try to hang on to the life you’ve had, you will lose it. If you will let go of that life for me, you’ll discover new life that you haven’t imagined.”
So, Jesus laid out a new understanding of what it meant to be Messiah, one that included torture and suffering and death; and he laid out a new job description for his disciples. Peter was convinced it was all wrong. He wanted nothing to do with this new job. But, look what God did with him!
The thing is that this is entirely consistent with how God does things. Time and time again God takes someone who isn’t at all entrepreneurial, who often enough is unprepared and uninterested, and in and through that someone carries out God’s purposes. God takes folks who are unexpected and uninspiring and sometimes just flat incompetent, and does wondrous things with them. Those folks we think of as great heroes of the faith didn’t start out heroic at all. That’s just how God does it.
Which ought, I think, to make us both hopeful and anxious. It ought to make us hopeful because these are folks like us – like me. I have to admit that one of my favorite canticles in the Prayer Book is one we largely hear in Lent. I feel quite connected to the Song of Penitence, with its verse, “I have sinned, O Lord, I have sinned,/ and I know my wickedness only too well.” I think if we’re honest, we are all aware of our shortcomings. We can be hopeful to think that God can do wonderful things in and through folks like us – and usually does!
And that’s what might make us anxious. If God can work through folks like us, then we need to consider that God is always calling folks like us – that God is always calling us. Sure, that call doesn’t often come in some great and mysterious event; but it certainly will come. And we are people who say we will respond. Every time we attend a baptism in the Episcopal Church, and at Easter and other times, we say again and again that “We will, with God’s help.” We trust that God in Christ is calling, and we have committed to answer when we hear. In the Baptismal Covenant we have heard, if you will, a job description; and we have committed to the job.
Blessedly, rarely are we called to lead God’s people out of slavery into freedom; but we are called. And few of us will see a burning bush; but we will hear God call. And when we hear we can trust that God can work in us, because God has always worked in folks like us. From a Hebrew mother, who put her child in a basket because she was required to throw him in the river, to a teenage girl, who said to God’s messenger “I will do what God asks;” from a frightened shepherd with an identity crisis to a confused fisherman who, until after the resurrection, can’t keep his foot out of his mouth; God has worked in folks like us to carry out God’s purposes. So when God calls, we need not worry that we’re not good or competent or entrepreneurial or heroic enough. God can do wondrous things through folks like us. God always has.